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many many thanks dedicated to someone who willing to spent his valuable time with me last whole week. he was flying back jkt yesterday, yet have not get any answer from me instead im asking for some more time to think about it! he is disappointed, i assumes!

i do understand that how lucky i am to have such nice guy like him. i sure i will being kill by his fans if they know how unfair (he said so) im to him. but guys dont ever think that im happy or proud being unfair to him. never i never feels proud of this kind of stuff. i feels bad when im unfair to other. i tries hard to be very fair in every single thing in my life. sometimes thing happened out of my control. and i starts to become an unfair's girl to other. i hate the unfair side of me :(

sometimes i would think n questioning people around me, is he (x) fair enough to me? why does he block my step when i do ready to move on n why did he make me down while i was with him? no bodies can answer me perfectly. for me fair unfair cant be evalute by anyone. different person have different evaluation on it :)

well...ehmmm kind of miss someone now hehehe

see on my next blog! lup u ol pul xxx